Christmas is almost here

Well, Dad
Christmas is almost here....
My kids are overjoyed and have been counting down the days for almost a month. It's fun to see their excitement.
I am doing well. Just can't help, but to think of those Christmas' when we were all together, wacky gift exchanges, good food, and laughs. Ah, the good old days for sure.
I miss all that, but look forward to making memories my children can share.

Just wanted to send a little note. I am thinking of Dad often.

Happy Birthday to my brother, Sam!

I would like to wish my brother Sam, a Happy 23rd Birthday. I remember a lot about that day-even though I was only a kindergartner. I got on the bus and left for school that day, and the bus driver asked me the same question she had for a week now. "Did your Mom hav that baby yet?' Katy and I always laughed and said, "not yet". After school, I remember seeing my Grandma Sheahen's car in our driveway. That's when I knew the baby was here!

Sam was a chubby little man, and my sister and I were proud. Hard to believe that was so many years ago!

Today, is a little emotional for all of us, especially Sam, who misses Dad probably more than anyone will ever know.

Thankfully, he spent some time at Mom's today-and I spoke with him earlier today on the phone.

Dad, you are in our thoughts today, like always, but I have a special request for you today-keep Sam in your thoughts and prayers on his birthday.
Thank you. and Love you too!

Snow Dump

Well, winter is for sure here now...we got dumped on last night...probably 12 inches or so. The kids love it. Me, not so much.
I am not a huge fan of winter driving, snow shoveling, and cold weather. But, I live in Wisconsin, and I have to endure all 3 from now until March!
Thankfully, we now have a snowblower which eases the snow shoveling. It was our big purchase last year, and has defiantly paid for itself already! Dad loved snow removal. Yes, he complained about having to do it, but still did it. He did removal for others too. I remember in the recent years he did work at the condo complex he lived in, helping others with their removal. Even when he came to my house. He would be out chopping at the ice at the end of my driveway. The last time, he even wrecked our shovel doing it. Of course, Steve and I laughed, proabably me more than Steve, but Dad didn't seem to care, because it worked...the ice was gone, and now, so was the shovel. Of course, now I wished I would have saved that shovel because it would have been another concrete memory.

Well...that's about he for now. Just wanted to share another memory. Thinking of you, Dad. Now, at the moment. Thought of you today when I was removing snow.

I miss you and love you!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving!
Had a nice Thanksgiving meal today at my Mom's today...
Thanksgiving, a day to be thankful...this year I am thankful for family, friends, good health, the norm, just like most years. Thank you to Mom, for the wonderful meal. Kate, Sam, Brother in law, Jay, it was nice to see all of you. I always enjoy these gatherings. Dad, you were for sure missed today, but provided us with ample conversation, multiple times, today!
It felt good to gather with my family, again. As always, a holiday makes me think of how things used to be...when you were still with us...
I got a little emotional on the way up to Mom's. Knowing that you are not physically with us anymore, is still painful. I still have sudden outbursts of tears and sadness, but it's getting better, I think...
Today, I thought about when we were younger and the Thanksgiving meals we shared. You always loved Thanksgiving-turkey and mashed potatoes-your fave...were a staple on this holiday. We certainly ate our share today, had tons of laughs, and a really nice time.

Us on Thanksgiving!

Comedy Cafe's are great!

Another weekend, flew by! Hard to believe it's already Sunday evening. Kids are tucked in bed, and I am up to my elbows in laundry...which by the way, I should be doing now. I need to blog to clear my mind.
This weekend, I saw a great comedy show at the Skyline Comedy Cafe in Appleton. I highly recommend this place! Steve and I had so much laughs. We were almost in tears at some points. This was a just what we needed! A night out with great friends, for a friend's 30th, dinner, drinks, and lots of laughter. Speaking of drinks... I tried a chocolate kiss martini, the second martini I have ever tried in my life, and it was good, but bit strong for me. I only drank 1/2 and one of my girlfriends drank the rest. I would much rather stick with a good, white wine.
Anyhow, it was a riot. These comedians were great! Lots of crude, obnoxious jokes, that may have been pushing the "R Envelope", but given the setting, and circumstances of celebrating a friend's 30th-everything seemed appropriate. Of course, one comedian made a CUBS joke, because he had just been in the Chicago area. This totally reminded me of my Dad, as anything Cubs does.

I just smiled and thought of how much he would have enjoyed hearing these comedians. I am sure he wouldn't have gone for the non-smoking setting, close seating, and the cost of the drinks, even the sodas were expensive!

We will be going back there again, for sure!

Today, church, going home and doing yardwork (Cleaning gutters, etc.) a Target run this afternoon, and dinner with the inlaws and there went Sunday.

Looking forward to a short week and seeing THE FAM! Not only do I miss my Dad, but I miss my MOM, BROTHER, AND SISTER TOO! I will see them this week!

I miss my family

The reunion was a success. Lots of fun seeing old friends and talking about the good old days at CHS. I am proud to be a Don, and will always be!
A few people brought up my Dad, which of course, was bound to happen. It was alright though because I like to talk about him. At this stage in the game, it seems to help the healing process. As if I will ever be ok with losing a parent.
The Holidays are coming quick and this season will again provide ample time for thoughts and reflection. This time of year always makes me think about family. Mom, Dad, Kate, Sam, and my extended family. It would be nice to see everyone again. All at the same place, just like old times. They say change is good, but I still struggle to see how this change was good.
Seeing Grandpa Sheahen, this past weekend, was nice. Sometimes, his voice even sounded like my Dad's and I liked that. Obviously, there is a resemblance there, that makes me think of my Dad too.
I know this blog seems to be choppy, but I am having a miss my family moment, which inspired me to blog.
Off to dinner at my inlaws.

1 month just flew by!

Very busy month!
Long time, no post, I know! I have been working a ton and my 10 year class reunion has consumed most of my time.
In addition to Halloween activities, Alex's school activities, yard work, and everyday tasks, I have been one busy gal.
It's a good thing, I guess because time has flown by.
Speaking of...my class reunion is this weekend, so no time for updating now.
Still miss Dad everyday. Looking forward to seeing my Mom this weekend...and the rest of the fam too.
Will also be doing a Grandpa Sheahen and Pat visit this weekend pre reunion festivities.

Looking forward to a great, busy, and FUN weekend!

Weekend update

Another busy weekend...Alex's football game, shopping, birthday parties, and a night out with my husband!
Steve and I went to dinner last night downtown. We braved the homecoming crowds and had dinner at our favorite Mexican restaurant. It was refreshing to have a "date". The kids gladly opted for a sleepover at Grandma's. (Steve's parent's) After dinner we went to our friends house and hung out. The guys watching football on the dvr and the ladies talking and laughing over wine. Good company and great friends is a great way to spend a Saturday evening.

Homecoming weekend brought back memories of my high school years. 95-99...watching winning football games, toilet-papering, and other shenanigans. I remember once my Dad driving us to the store so we could by TP, and Mom taking us TP-ing freshmen year! Our van was loaded with people, and mom was behind the wheel. All fun and games until we got pulled over. We hid the TP, and rolls were rolling out from under the seat, and the police officer let us go! LOL! Ah, the good old days!

Thought of Dad today because I received an email from one of his classmates.-I have to finish this later...just checked the time-off to pick Alex up from a birthday party.

I'm 29 Happy Birthday to Kate and I

3 days ago, I celebrated my 29th birthday. I was doing okay, I subbed taught during the day, my girlfriends surprised me with coffee and breakfast, and the day seemed to be a happy one.

Then, I thought about it.

No family, Dad was gone, and Mom lives far away. No siblings to share the happiness...(they too, were far away) and I was sad.

Any other year, I would have been fine. Just another birthday, but would have made it a point to visit my family (Mom, Dad, Katy, Sam) sometime that weekend.
My sadness lasted a long time, and my friends and family were calling to check on me. I was fine, just sad. Even my own children were trying to cheer me up.

I got over it that evening, when I had a time to reflect...talked with Sam (my brother), my twin sister, and my Mom, and Grandpa Sheahen, and felt better. Growing old doesn't really bother me, missing my family, does.

Although, 29 is hardly, old. Next year, when I turn 30, I might have a different mentality! LOL!

My girlfriends took me out on Friday night, and I indulged in a guiltfree night of laughs, dancing, drinks, and quality mommy time with friends. Saturday, Alex had a football game after which we traveled to visit my Mom, my sister, and her family. I wanted to make it to the casino, but didn't have the time to.

The family time was nice. I do have more to ad, but I have to cut this post short, for a phone call. Will write again when I get a chance.

Sept. 11th-a time to reflect and think about the past.

Sept. 11th.
I remember that day. I was just about to head to class at UWSP. I was waiting for my boyfriend (now husband) to pick me up for class. I sat in my apt. with the CNN news on was having my breakfast. Then, it happened, the first plane hit. I watched for a minute, and had to head to class because Steve came in. We drove to campus and I walked to my religious studies class from the parking lot we always parked in. By the time I sat down, my professor delivered the news and turned on the tv. Another plane crash. We all watched in sadness and horror, and classes were dismissed for the rest of the day. I walked to the student union for something to eat and noticed the silence and sadness. My appetite was no longer there, I sat down at an empty table and started to pray.

This day, I will never forget. Reflecting on that inspired me to blog today...

I am taking a break from housecleaning and laundry folding for an update. Big doings in our household. Little Alex started kindergarten and football practice! Crazy stuff. As with any big event, I wish I had both my parents there to enjoy it. Too bad Mom lives so far away, and Dad, too bad you had to leave us so soon.
I loaded up the van and off we went to school. Alex was full of smiles and excitement, and I felt fine too. I had some butterflies, but overall, I felt fine. What was the big fuss about, it was just kindergarten right? Well, all was well, until I gave my hug and kiss and walked out of his classroom. The tears just started flowing. I quickly hid behind my sunglasses and raced out of the building. Where did that come from? I didn't see that coming. It was just the whole ordeal of my little man growing up. We have full day kindergarten here, and as much as I was excited for him to go, and anticipating that day all summer, when it came down to it, maybe I was not as ready as I thought.

Two weeks have passed now and I find myself thinking about Alex still a lot, but I am enjoying my time with Collin too. It's kind of like the time I had with Alex before I had Collin. We are adjusting to our new schedule.

Alex started football practice. We are already on our second mouth guard. The dog got a hold of the first one. Dad, I know you would have gotten a good laugh from that. We sure did. Good thing, we already bought two, anticipating a lost one. He does pretty well. He is such a little guy, and it's flag football, so I don't have to worry that much right?

Dad, I wish you were here to see this. Watch practices, play catch, and go to games. Like any sport he plays, Alex gives his all, and is very competitive. Even though this is flag football, some kids "forget" that. Last night at practice, Alex was hit on a block, and his body went flying through the air and he laid still on the practice field. My heart started to race. I couldn't even speak, I really thought he was seriously hurt. I yelled his name from the sideline, and he jumped up and yelled "what!" Everyone laughed, and Alex continued on. YIKES! I need to get used to this sports watching thing. When it comes to your own kids, it's way different.

A recent trip to Marshfield for my cousin's wedding was a mini vacation for us. The Holiday Inn with a waterslide, and the Central Wisconsin State Fair provided us with some great entertainment.

Puppy news-Our Frank was neutered on Tuesday. Another adventure. The crazy thing threw up on the way to the vet. He must have known what was going to happen to him. And, if that wasn't enough...At the vet, he pooped on the floor when I was checking him in! Seriously! DOGS, I tell ya! $103 later, and after a long day for Frank at the vet, I was able to take him home.

I've also been busy planning my class reunion which is scheduled for Alpine Holiday Weekend, Nov. 7,8, & 9th. Looking forward to seeing classmates, I haven't seen in 10 years!

Well off to finish laundry and household duties before I need to pick Alex up from school.

Dad, just to remind you, my birthday is this coming week. That's what I used to do is call my Dad a week before and remind him, jokingly.

1 year ago today

One year ago today, you passed away. I can remember that moment like it happened yesterday. I heard your breaths getting weaker, and there was more time in between your breaths. I nervously watched the heart monitor as your vitals dropped. The nurse must have sensed my anxiety, and shut the machine off. Carol began saying prayers and stoking your forehead. Steve held me close, and tears streamed down my cheeks. I was waiting for the moment that you would take your last breath, and then, at 6:00 you let out one last breath. I touched your hand, and lips, of course, you were still warm, and I checked for a pulse, as I looked at your somewhat peaceful looking body. Your skin sunk in, and you lifeless body, seemed to be quickly aging. I cried, and cried, hugging Steve and Carol.

What a day off sadness, and somewhat relief. No more suffering, no more pain, now, you are in peace.

Today, just one year ago-which by the way seems to have gone by real fast....We went to Marshfield for a Mass Grandpa Sheahen had set up in your name at OLP. The whole fam was there, and Dar and Tom came from AZ-they were visiting fam in the area, and Uncle Harold came too. Of course, Kate and her fam, Sam, Mom, and my fam and I was there too. Saw a few other regular church goers that knew you too.

After the mass, we headed up to the cemetery. My kids found entertainment jumping over gravestones, and running around. It was happy and sad. There was tears and laughter at different points of our visit there.

I tried to be composed because my kids were there, but that didn't last when I saw Sam and Mom embracing and crying.

Afterward, we enjoyed our a traditional meal at Crabby Daves-which I know you would appreciate!
I had a turkey Sammy in your honor, but you probably wouldn't have loved because it was on a croissant, and it had honey mustard on it!

It was nice seeing everyone, sharing memories, and thoughts of you was defiantly the highlight!

I was happy to see Dar and Tom too-and Aunt Dar, thanks for still reading this blog! :)

I will come and visit someday. I look forward to seeing you guys, Mary, the kids, your grandkids, and everyone!

Thanks for the visit!

Today it all started just one year ago...

Well here we are one year to the day that my Dad went to the hospital to find out what was wrong. I am full of sadness, as I reflect back upon those 9 days. What a roller coaster ride. Some ups, but a lot of downs. I went back and read the blog that I so religiously kept. The late night updates, full of emotion and love. I held on to everything that I could, for as long as I could. My faith, strength, and overall being was tested.

I miss Dad today and everyday, some days more than others. I try not to let my emotions get the best of me.

This blog has been my therapy and a great place to vent and reflect.

First and foremost, I want to thank my family. What a lot for a family to go through. I know we aren't the only ones, but at the time, it really felt like we were. The support and love I have received is not forgotten, and is appreciated.
I want to thank everyone for their continued thoughts and prayers.

This year has been full of greatness and love and I am thankful for that.

I have learned a lot though this entire process, but probably the most important lesson is to love and appreciate your loved ones because life is too short.

Thoughts and Reminders

Today is just another day in most people's lives. Well for me it is too. It starts out like most days when I wake up, do the morning routine, and things are comfortably the same. Then, it happens...something remind me of my Dad. This happens a lot and it either send me into a smile thinking of him, or tears missing him...

Last night, it was the fact that my new puppy had an accident and I was shaking my head while cleaning up dog poop. Potty training a dog hasn't been fun. I would rather potty train 10 toddlers to 1 dog-no joke!
Well, I couldn't help but to think of what Dad would say-and the laugh he would have had over the whole ordeal.

Yesterday, it was heading towards Waupaca to have some end of summer fun at a friend's lake house.

I could go on and on about these moments. It's hard to believe it's almost been a year since my Dad has passed away.

Sometimes it seems slow, and other times, the time has passed fast.

I am thankful for those that are still here. I love my family very much and have been trying to make more of an effort to show that they are appreciated.

I will always encourage others to do the same as well.

Alex is 5 today!

Today, Alex turned 5. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It's hard to believe 5 years have passed.

Tonight was a fun family night. Mom and Natasha came for a sleepover.

Tomorrow, a fun birthday party planned. Poolside fun at a hotel. I am excited.

Dad, you are in my thoughts as always. Another fun time with the fam, but still missing you. I know how much you enjoy those family gatherings...lol!

Seriously, I know you did love seeing the kids though.

Miss ya terribly and love you too! Goodnight!

Long time, no post-busy summer

Long time no posts...I know.
Busy times around here-summer is in full swing. Between running Alex to summer school, swimming lessons, soccer, or softball; my summer is flying by!

Father's Day came and went-I felt sad that day as expected. Probably more so because it was my 1st Father's Day without my Dad.

My family celebrated Father's Day a week later taking a trip to the Madison Zoo and Vitense mini golf course. We had a great day trip. It was nice getting away. For the kids, I think the mini golf was the highlight of the trip. I have mentioned this before, but that place is amazing. I always think more of my Dad when we do things that I know he would appreciate. Having a mini golf course, was always a passion of his...of course with that, the batting cages, driving range, etc.

Someday, when I am rich and famous, I would love to build one, in honor of him! Speaking of rich and famous...
I need to get Dad a headstone. I need to and will when we can afford one. Actually, I need to check into it more. It's just one of those things that I have been putting off. For what a funeral costs, those damn things should be included in the price. Thankfully, we recieved lots of help with the funeral costs! I haven't forgotten that generosity!

Onward...
Well, tonight we just got back from the fireworks....fun times as well. The kids had a blast-sparklers and all.

Tomorrow, it's off to a friend's lakehouse for a day on the lake...should be fun too.

Sunday, a visit with my Mom, sister, and brother, which I am looking forward too! A LOT!

Ah, love my family!

Speaking of this. Sam came to one of Alex's softball games last weekend. He was close for country USA, and decided to come to a game. We met him at the hotel he was staying at. He walked out in the parking lot, and looked so much like Dad. No one said a word. We just smiled and continued on to the game.

Dad, you would have loved to have been there, like always.

Miss you tons, and still love you, like when you were here!

Vacation anyone???

This evening was a bit stressful. The kids were crabby, bedtime was hard, Steve was crabby about work stuff, and it was an all around not so fun evening.

We need a vacation!
Yes, a vacation would be so nice! It's been almost 6 years since we have traveled. I mean like on an airplane, or driven somewhere over 4 hours away.

Let me backup to our last vacation-it was to WI Dells almost a year ago.
Dad and Mom met all of us at Kate and Jay's hotel room at the Kalahari . Fun times...just like old times...the whole fam together again....the first time in a long time...probably since my parent's divorced when I was 17...that we made a family trip like this.
Although, it was just for the evening, it was still great! Dad was in the water too-enjoying watching his grandchildren. He even floated around the lazy river for what seemed like eternity! He was back and forth between that and the wave pool. Oh, and I must not forget heading back up to Kate and Jay's room for a score check on the Cubs game. God forbid he missed any minute of that game! LOL!

Anyhow, just thinking of the memories. Missing my entire family.

Another Win for Alex

Just got home from another one of Alex's softball games.
Can't help, but to think of you on these days. I know you would be so proud of Alex. I remember what it was like to have you at our sporting events growing up. I wish Alex had that opportunity too.
He's a hustler, hitter, and a ballplayer. Everything, I know you would be proud of.
I have some peace knowing that you are watching from above, but it's not the same as having you there.

Life is different since you've been gone. Not good, or bad, just different. I would never have anticipated you going so soon, or all my emotions afterward.
I know you know we miss you, and have not forgotten you.

Memorial Day

Hope everyone had a Happy Memorial Day and a great weekend with friends and family.
We sure did...
The highlight for me was a cookout today at my house. Gorgeous weather, yummy food, lots of laughs, couldn't ask for more.

Dad you missed the great food: burgers, brats, dogs, and the fixin's-you probably would just have had some burgers, and dews.

Dad you missed the kids craziness-playing outside, Alex hitting some baseballs, the kids taking turns on Alex's new min motorcycle, sliding down the blow up waterslide, which you loved seeing at Alex's birthday party-except we didn't have water on it-the wind would have been too cold for the kiddos.

AND MORE!

I am glad I spent a ton of quality family time this weekend-also did a ton of yardwork too. Speaking of which, I seem to be putzing around in the yard more so now than I ever have before. I remember how much you enjoyed yardwork. You took so much pride in the yard growing up. I like it too. It's kind of theraputic to me. When I am out there working-mowing, planiting, mulching, weed wacking, etc...I think of you.

I miss you. Mom misses you. Kate and Sam miss you. We all do! Man, it's hard to believe it will be 1 year in Aug.

Well...off to bed for me. Love you, Dad.

Thank you for watching over me

I had a scary experience last night on the road in the pouring rain. Luckily no one got hurt. It could have been a ton worse. I am so thankful I was being watched over! Going around a curve, in the pouring rain...I fishtailed, slid off the rode, going around a curve, into a ditch, and side swiped a pole. Nothing major, just a big dent in my vehicle. Alex and I are fine. I was following my friend-and she saw the whole thing-thank God she was there! I just feel bad, embarrassed, and still upset, hence the short and sweetness of this post.

Thank you God, and thank you Dad!

Alex's first game!

Dad,
I really missed you yesterday on the way to Alex's softball game. We were heading to the game and I thought of you.
How proud you would have been to see him play his first game. How happy he would have been to see you there. Even though I take some peace in knowing that you were there in spirit, it's not the same as having you physically there. I was overcome with sadness and completely lost it on the way to game. If you could have seen him in his uniform, right down to the socks and cleats, I know you would have cried. He's the littlest guy on the team, and the youngest, for that matter, but don't let his size fool you. He's a hustler!

Well, I am happy to report that Alex's first softball game was a success. We won! He was 2 for 2 and played great! The score was 4 to 1 It was so exciting to watch him play. Seeing Steve out there too-as the coach, made me smile more! I remember when you coached us, great times!

The kids played a second game right away because it was opening day, and unfortunately we lost that game 3-10. The kids were just happy they won their first game!

Dad, missed you at the game yesterday. I know you were watching from above! Thanks for the win!

Turkey sandwiches don't taste the same

Dad
I am having lunch-thinking of you.
Turkey sandwiches have never tasted the same since you have passed away. Things haven't been the same...everything has been different.
Each day, I think of you-time and time again. I had a garage sale this weekend and attempted to sell a few of your shirts and pants. I know you probably laughed thinking I was trying to capitalize on your stuff. Well, I needed some dough. :)
It was hard watching people sift though your things, but I thought at least I wouldn't get too emotional at my garage sale. I was right...I kept my emotions intact until mom cam over. She picked out a few things that she wanted for Sam...after she left to spend the afternoon at school with Alex-I cried. I miss you so much! I wish there was a way to have more time with you. I need a few more minutes...even though I know that would probably not be enough either.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I am cooking dinner for my father in law tonight because my mother in law is out of town for a few more days. We are having brats on the grill. I know not a fav of yours, but it would have been nice to cook you dinner sometime.
I never did that for you. I wish I would have. Well, just thinking of you a whole lot today.

I miss you and love you Dad. I am sorry that you left this world so early and under such crazy circumstances.

Have a good day!

Happy Birthday and Easter too!

Long time since an update...
We had a nice Easter.
Easter was a beautiful time filled with lots of fun family activities. Easter egg hunts with the boys, lots of good food, family gathering, and of course lots of candy.

We went to lunch with Grandpa and Pat during Easter week. As always, we had a nice visit and good food.

And...we went to go see you at the cemetery. Not much has changed there-snow has melted, and that's about it. Our hopes are to get you a headstone soon. Although peaceful and quiet at the cemetery...still not a comfortable place to be. I can't help but to remember the moment that I saw you take your last breath. I said some prayers, and quietly shed some tears. I take comfort in knowing that Grandma is there with you. Going to the cemetery kind of reminds me of this.

Happy birthday Dad-hope you had a great birthday! On April 11th...I thought of you-All day long! We had a special day that day. Your birthday was the day we brought our puppy home. Frank, loves his new home! We are so gladl that we got him on your birthday too! I will always remember that day for two reasons now!

You are probably laughing about it...the idea of us having a pet. Remember Penny and Geezer??? I know-a lot of work. This will be too. What a scene though. Lots of laughs!

Miss you Dad, and love you too!

Put me in coach, I am ready to play!

I could have written about this in my other post, but I thought this news was so exciting that it deserved its own post!

I have been pushing so hard for Alex to get on a baseball team. The problem is...Ripon does not have a league for 4/5 year olds! He has to wait one more summer until he is old enough. 6! Can you believe that???
Well, I couldn't wait another summer----so, I found a league in Oshkosh he can join! I even got a friend of mine...a lady from church who's husband owns a business to sponsor the team. They have a daughter the same age as Alex and she's going to be on the team too.

I actually got enough people so we can have basically and all Ripon team. Lots of Alex's classmates were eager to join this great co-ed team!

I am so pumped for him!

Plus, a huge bonus...Steve is going to be the coach! I know he's not the most outgoing person, but with a tad bit of convincing, he agreed! I really didn't have to push-I told him a bunch of parents usually help out at these things anyway!

I know you will be looking down on us with a smile! Thanks for helping me do this too! I know you will be proud.

I'll miss you in the stands physically, but I know you will be there!

Busy Week

Hi Dad
I had an eventful week and thought of you a lot.

1. Ken's Dad passed away on Tuesday-Steve and I went to the wake on Thursday-kind of weird being the first funeral since yours...
Obviously, still sad and uncomfortable...Mom was very sad too-which made it even harder. Plus, I couldn't help to think about losing my Dad.

2. I worked a lot this week-I love teaching kids. I love being a sub-teaching without all the hassle! No lesson plans, teacher/staff drama, no contract, no crabby parents-can't beat it!

3. I went to my first wine tasting-very fun! Learned a lot about wine and had fun with lots of my Mommy friends too. I know you weren't a wine drinker....but I had to laugh about learning the techniques of tasting wine.

4. Took the boys to an open gym at the gymnastics center in Oshkosh-which they loved! I know you would have enjoyed watching the boys jump, tumble, and run around. Even Alex, with all his energy...fell asleep on the way back to Ripon-I had to wake him in the school parking lot for preschool in the afternoon!

5. And last, but not least-all the March Madness...kind of following this, but not really...mainly just thinking of you.

6. One of your old players from the Chaps-found me on faceboook! We chatted about you, and that was nice. I love when people tell me such great stories, and the impact you had on their lives!

Busy week, with lots to do, but still everyday, I think of you!

Thinking of you a lot today...

Dad,
Thinking of you a lot today...lots of March Madness hoops going on....wonder who you would have picked for your pool?????
I bowled really great tonight too....20 pins over my average! Thanks for the help :)

We did lots of yardwork today-getting the place ready for spring...the kids played outside all afternoon.

Guess what??? Collin's been hitting the ball a lot-of a tee of course...and He's another lefty! At least that is what we think!
Alex is doing great with hitting when we pitch to him! The neighbors really get a kick out of watching him hit. It's just sad that he can't play until he turns 6! One more summer! BLAH!
Oh well, soccer will do for now...even though-you aren't to fond of that sport!

Steve lost 2o pounds-you would be proud of him-He's mainly just cutting calories!

One more thing...Sam's not feeling well...and probably should see a doctor, but you know Sam....he has your stubbornness...so-help him make the right decision here, Please!

We all love and miss you more than you will ever know!

Update on my family

Hi
It's been a little while since I have blogged, but I have been busy around here....
Here's our update.
Much to my Dad's dismay-he always thought animals were too much work...and he's right, I know, but...

• My oldest just had kindergarten screening last week!

• We have decided to get a puppy-so we are spending lots of time planning, and prepping. He hasn't arrived yet, but will be here around Easter. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhh-the boys don't know about it yet.

• We have been busily potty training our almost 2 year old (his birthday is 3.13.)-Fun times! I feel quite accomplished as a Mom when I do these things.

• I have been working a lot-I love substitute teaching...it's almost like being a teacher without the hassle.
• I have been having lots of playdates at my house with "friends" and other Mom's-it's entertaining for the boys-We are seriously getting "cabin fever" around here. In fact, Alex has been practing his baseball in the snow-and on Saturdays he heads to an indoor batting cage with Steve. I know my Dad would really appreciate this!
• I have also been planning my 2 year old's birthday party-I can't help but to think about what my Dad would say this year as we are having his party at a local hotel with a pool! I love to entertain, just not to cook, and entertain in my humble home-a not so large ranch style house!

That's about it for us...busy month.

On a side note-those of you who don't have facebook-I would encourge you to join....

On of my Dad's classmates-recently connected with me on there, and it has been nice communicating via email-sharing memories and thoughts-and this week I received a very touching CD from on of his classmates.

I cannot thank him enough for this gift of songs his choir sang;very spiritual and beautiful..something, I know my Dad would appreciate as much as I did!

Thanks so much!

6 MONTHS AGO

It's been 6 months ago today my Dad passed away.
I saw him take his last breath, but sometimes it still doesn't seem real.

Each day I remember him, think of him, and cry for him.

Thank you Mom and Dad

Just back from my bowling league with Steve. Dad never thought bowling was considered a "real" sport.
I am sure he would get a kick out of knowing that I was in a league. I started the league after he passed away.

Just thinking of him again tonight.
Wondering why he had to leave so soon? Wishing I could call him and chat.

It's hard to believe it will soon be 6 months since he has passed away.

Sometimes, it seems like time has flown by. Other times, not so much! Good days and bad days, that's the way the ball rolls!

Those of you who read this...do me a favor...
Kiss you dad and mom if you can. Tell them how much they mean to you. I always thought they knew how I felt. Don't just "think" that...tell them.

My parents brought me into the world...
They raised me and made me who I am today...
They comforted me in my times of need...
They helped me with whatever I needed help with...
AND sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more...
My computer is running low on batteries, otherwise I could go on and on...

Thank you for all of those things and more.

GRRRRRRRRRR! I wish I could call you!

I am having a bad day today.
Dad, I would love to call you up and tell you all about it, but I can't. I know you would love to hear my complaining, and would probably tell me...
It's all what you make of it. I am probably making a mountain out of a mole hill, but in any case, I would love to call you.
Mom's at work-so I can't really call here there...but I still might.

Dad, I miss you.

Mom, I miss you too-can't wait for your visit this weekend. It has been way too long!

DAILY THOUGHTS

So here I am doing my afternoon routine of housework, entertaining my kids, laundry, etc...and again I find myself distracted by the thought of my Dad.

I often wonder...
What are you up to?
What's it like in Heaven?
What are you wearing?
Why did you have to die?
Are you sad?
Are you mad?
These thoughts cross my mind a lot. Today, is one of those days. I had a fun day with my kids at the Fond du Lac Children's Museum. We had lunch at McDonald's with the playland, and I thought of you when I saw a man there reading newspapers, and drinking a Coke with the lid off and no straw, just like you used to do.

Last night, I watched two of my favorite show-Grey's and Private Practice. Both had dying in the plotline. One had organ donation, and life support. The other just had a younger man die. I always think of you when I see this. Steve always asks why I watch these shows if I get so emotional when I watch them. I don't know why...I always do.

Seeing death, even if it's fake and on tv, still reminds me of seeing you. Laying there, almost lifeless, listening to your breathing, the beeping of the machines, watching you age so quickly.


I miss you Dad.

LOVE YOU!

Ed Sheahen Basketball Tourney

I am pleased to announce that we are working on setting up a basketball tournament at Columbus High School in honor of my

Save Now

Dad.
I would like to set up a scholarship fund for a Columbus High School student(s).
I have been in contact with Joe Konieczny who is the athletic director at Columbus High School. (He is also another one of my Dad's former basketball players.)
Keep checking back for updates.

16 years ago today!

16 years ago today I was diagnosed with cancer. I remember that day like it was yesterday...waiting in the clinic waiting room for my parents to come out of a conference room. The doctor told them the news and I remember both my parents being in tears.

I was 12 years old, and this was not what I had planned.

Is cancer ever what anyone has planned????

Long story short-those 9 months were not fun. Missing school, basketball practice, and being in the hospital way too much. I remember my Mom being there with me all the time. She stayed with me and even slept in my hospital bed.

Dad, on the other hand, not so much. He hated the whole ordeal. Hated hospitals, me being sick, and all that went along with it.

I would have one week of chemo-and 3 weeks off. Dad would visit me in the hospital, but it was always short and sweet. I knew he wasn't comfortable. He had to hold the fort at home with Katy and Sam.

I remember lots of laughs, tears, and pain. In the end-losing my hair, 1 ovary, lots of strength, and enduring lots of pain...it was a small price to pay for my life.

Dad and Mom encouraged me to have strength and faith, this is what got me through that time, and today, I am reminded by that.

New slideshow of Dad and Grandpa Sheahen

I added another slide show of some pics. I am doing my best to find more pics.
GEEZ, I wish I would have taken more.
Lesson learned...

Just having an I miss Dad night.

Ken Sternweis, thank you for the email.

Mike Varney.-Thank you for the Christmas card.
These kinds of things mean a lot.

Blog followers???

One more thing...
I did ad a blog follower list.

I wanted to see who still reads this site-of course you are not obligated to be a blog follower, but it's kinda nice though to see that people still read this!

Just click on follow this blog on the side.

Thanks!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!
Oh my, can you believe it's 2009??

What a year it has been. I am looking forward to this year.
Why???
Birthday's to celebrate-Steve and I will be 29, or kids will turn 5 and 2.
My 10 year class reunion is coming in November-which I am planning.
A family vacation is in order-yet to be determined.
Just a whole new year full of adventures.

Of course, more time will pass without Dad. I'll still miss him everyday, and some days more than others.
I often wonder what time will be like without him. Obviously, I am very thankful for the time we had when he was here, but I still wonder what the future will be like.

I still will look for him at my kids birthday parties-eating tons of my mother in law's bbq's-and drinking diet dews.

I will listen for his laughter as he watches my boys play sports.

I will think of him everytime I see my brother-driving around his car.

These things will probably never change. That's ok. I will keep these memories fond and near to my heart.

Even though, I might not update this thing as often as I would like, know that I still feel the same.

I miss my Dad terribly, more than I even anticipated, as crazy as that sounds.

But, this is a new year...a new start.

Time to continue to live life and enjoy life.

Of course, the new years res. are in order.

Take better care of myself
Workout more-and stop wasting that gym membership-I signed that lovely 2 year contact too.
Be a better catholic
Be the best, wife, and mom that I can be.

Best of luck to all you with your new year's resolutions-although, I think they are overrated, and not that necessary because we all do whatever we want anyway.

Hey, the look good on paper though.

Well, off to enjoy the rest of my long weekend!

Just a quick note-
Dad,
I miss you and love you!
Hope all is well. Please continue to be with me and watch over my family. Happy New Year to you!