Sunday, August 23, 2009

1 year ago today

One year ago today, you passed away. I can remember that moment like it happened yesterday. I heard your breaths getting weaker, and there was more time in between your breaths. I nervously watched the heart monitor as your vitals dropped. The nurse must have sensed my anxiety, and shut the machine off. Carol began saying prayers and stoking your forehead. Steve held me close, and tears streamed down my cheeks. I was waiting for the moment that you would take your last breath, and then, at 6:00 you let out one last breath. I touched your hand, and lips, of course, you were still warm, and I checked for a pulse, as I looked at your somewhat peaceful looking body. Your skin sunk in, and you lifeless body, seemed to be quickly aging. I cried, and cried, hugging Steve and Carol.

What a day off sadness, and somewhat relief. No more suffering, no more pain, now, you are in peace.

Today, just one year ago-which by the way seems to have gone by real fast....We went to Marshfield for a Mass Grandpa Sheahen had set up in your name at OLP. The whole fam was there, and Dar and Tom came from AZ-they were visiting fam in the area, and Uncle Harold came too. Of course, Kate and her fam, Sam, Mom, and my fam and I was there too. Saw a few other regular church goers that knew you too.

After the mass, we headed up to the cemetery. My kids found entertainment jumping over gravestones, and running around. It was happy and sad. There was tears and laughter at different points of our visit there.

I tried to be composed because my kids were there, but that didn't last when I saw Sam and Mom embracing and crying.

Afterward, we enjoyed our a traditional meal at Crabby Daves-which I know you would appreciate!
I had a turkey Sammy in your honor, but you probably wouldn't have loved because it was on a croissant, and it had honey mustard on it!

It was nice seeing everyone, sharing memories, and thoughts of you was defiantly the highlight!

I was happy to see Dar and Tom too-and Aunt Dar, thanks for still reading this blog! :)

I will come and visit someday. I look forward to seeing you guys, Mary, the kids, your grandkids, and everyone!

Thanks for the visit!

1 comment:

Ken said...

Dear Carly & Family,
I remembered your dad when I attended mass in Geneva, NY on Sat. Aug. 22. As the 23rd is also my parents' wedding anniversary, I will never forget when we lost Ed. This past weekend I was in Mfld. at the 8:30 Sunday mass at OLP, and seeing Ed's dad across the aisle, decided to go over and greet him afterward. I expressed my condolences and told him I follow this blog and send an email to you from time to time. I think he appreciated the gesture.
Ken Sternweis, CHS Class of '72.