So here it is....Christmas Day. A day of celebration, love, laughter, and wonderful time with family. I miss Dad more than ever at this time. I figured this Christmas would be hard, but I did not anticipate another loss that is making this time more difficult.
I had quite the busy week, and just recently suffered another loss of a dear friend and co-worker. I attending her Memorial this week.
Sad, and hard...opening up the wounds and pain from the loss of my Dad. My friend too, was young, and had been fighting cancer on and off for 7 years.
She knew she was dying, and even planned her own Memorial.
Anyhow, this started the week off with sadness and more thoughts of the dreadful day that Dad passed away.
I can still picture him taking his last breath. So bitter sweet for me. No more suffering and pain for Dad...Free from all this hospital chaos.
But a new chapter in my life has begun, and I am still adjusting to that simple fact that I don't have my Dad physically anymore.
Christmas time is hard...being around family...seeing people with their Dad's in church...etc.
All things that make me think of my Dad.
I even saw a younger guy at Burger King last night, that resembled my Dad in his high school days. I am not kidding. I did laugh to myself, and couldn't help but to think of him.
You see, that's what happens. Little things like that make me think of him.
I prayed tonight in chuch, for my Dad. I prayed for his continued watch and guidance over my family and I.
I know he was with me and I even teared up during some of the lovely Christmas tunes.
Well, off to help "Santa". We are last minute folks around here.
Merry Christmas!
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