2 years ago today I said goodbye

It's been 2 years today since I last saw you, Dad.

The bittersweet time came around 6 that evening. I watched you peacefully take your last breath. I cried and cried...but still felt a sense of relief.

Now, things are still the same...just different without you. I remember the past, the memories, good and bad. I have decided not to let the past be my future.

When my Dad passed away, my world stopped. I found comfort in nothing. Not even my own family could fix my emotions.

Today, as I reflect upon that day, or better that week leading up to that day, I still find myself asking the same questions.

It's hard for me not to think about this day, on today, Dad's death anniversary.

But rather than focus on the sadness, I have decided to think about the positive times.

Today, in your honor, Dad, I did these things for you!

I mowed the lawn-because I remember how much you loved yard work and mowing lawn always makes me think of you.
I drank your favorite pop-mello yellow
and
I ate your favorite turkey sammie for lunch.

Thank you, Dad for the happy memories. I am thinking of you today, as I do everyday.

I miss you and love you!


:) Moo

Time passes by...

We take for granted many things in life. We are all guilty in some way of this. I try to remind myself when I start to do this in my own life. It happens. We get busy. We get preoccupied with our events in life and before we know it...time passes and we are older.

This past week, I visited a nursing home while I was substitute teaching and could not help but to think of my Grandfather who recently passed, and my father, who passed almost 2 years ago.

I wonder what my Dad would have been like as an old man? Sadly, I will not get a chance to see that. My Grandfather, frail and ailing in his last month of life, was probably pretty close to what my Dad would have looked like.

Part of me is thankful that my Dad did not have to endure the nursing home route, etc. The other part of me wishes he could experience growing old.

Just a little bit of points to ponder.

Happy Father's Day in Heaven!

It's Father's Day and I miss my father! It has been almost 2 years since he has passed away and not a day has gone by that I have not thought about him.
Dad, I think about you more today because it is Father's Day. I miss our traditional visits and gatherings on this day. I remember the cookouts at my house in Ripon. Those were good times. Today, as I travel home from a family trip to Michigan, I think of you. Stories of remember when are going though my head.
Listening to my kids ask "how much longer?" reminds me of our trips to IL. I am thankful I have a husband and children to spend the weekend with. Spending time with them reminds me of things we did when I was young.
I know I said this before, but I will say it again. Dad, thank you. I am glad I spent almost 28 years of my life with you. I am thankful for that time. Yes, it was cut very short when you passed, but I am thankful for the time that we did have. I can only imagine what life would be like with you still here. Know that we still love you and think of you often. Today, when I arrive home, I will do something in your memory.
Dad, you loved and are missed. Happy Father's Day!

Miss You

I am feeling sad tonight. It's gloomy and rainy and I am thinking of my Dad. Why can't things just be like they used to be?

Miss you and love you, Dad!

thankful

Tonight, I thought of my Dad. Alex played a great baseball game. Lots of hits, great plays on the field, and excellent base running. Too bad Dad could not have seen this game.

Thinking about things Dad missed in recent weeks.
Baseball games
1st Communion of one of your granddaughters
Family gatherings
Mother's Day
Grandparents Day at Alex's school

and I am sure I missed a few things...just feeling down about it.

Mom was able to take a day off of work and come and spend the night with us. Alex enjoyed her company on Grandparents day. I am thankful that she was able to spend this day with him. I like that she is able to watch my children grow and participate in their lives.

Like when Dad was alive, I wish that they both live closer. The same town would be ideal.

It just seems like the kids are growing so fast. I look back at how things were when I was young. I lived the carefree life, just like my kids. It just makes me stop and thing and appreciate all I have.

Grandpa passed away

Sadly, Grandpa Sheahen has passed away last Monday. He is now at peace and is now in the company of his son, and wife.
I am thankful I was able to have words with him on the Friday before he passed. He was resting comfortably in his bed at the hospice home. His frail, ailing body, was hard to see. I had lots of reminders of seeing my father laying there.

Funeral info will be on April 10th. Check the marshfieldnewsherald or details.

Pray for his peace

Sending out a prayer request for my Grandfather who is back in the hospital again. We need prayers for his peace and comfort.
May God Speed!