DAILY THOUGHTS

So here I am doing my afternoon routine of housework, entertaining my kids, laundry, etc...and again I find myself distracted by the thought of my Dad.

I often wonder...
What are you up to?
What's it like in Heaven?
What are you wearing?
Why did you have to die?
Are you sad?
Are you mad?
These thoughts cross my mind a lot. Today, is one of those days. I had a fun day with my kids at the Fond du Lac Children's Museum. We had lunch at McDonald's with the playland, and I thought of you when I saw a man there reading newspapers, and drinking a Coke with the lid off and no straw, just like you used to do.

Last night, I watched two of my favorite show-Grey's and Private Practice. Both had dying in the plotline. One had organ donation, and life support. The other just had a younger man die. I always think of you when I see this. Steve always asks why I watch these shows if I get so emotional when I watch them. I don't know why...I always do.

Seeing death, even if it's fake and on tv, still reminds me of seeing you. Laying there, almost lifeless, listening to your breathing, the beeping of the machines, watching you age so quickly.


I miss you Dad.

LOVE YOU!

Ed Sheahen Basketball Tourney

I am pleased to announce that we are working on setting up a basketball tournament at Columbus High School in honor of my

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Dad.
I would like to set up a scholarship fund for a Columbus High School student(s).
I have been in contact with Joe Konieczny who is the athletic director at Columbus High School. (He is also another one of my Dad's former basketball players.)
Keep checking back for updates.

16 years ago today!

16 years ago today I was diagnosed with cancer. I remember that day like it was yesterday...waiting in the clinic waiting room for my parents to come out of a conference room. The doctor told them the news and I remember both my parents being in tears.

I was 12 years old, and this was not what I had planned.

Is cancer ever what anyone has planned????

Long story short-those 9 months were not fun. Missing school, basketball practice, and being in the hospital way too much. I remember my Mom being there with me all the time. She stayed with me and even slept in my hospital bed.

Dad, on the other hand, not so much. He hated the whole ordeal. Hated hospitals, me being sick, and all that went along with it.

I would have one week of chemo-and 3 weeks off. Dad would visit me in the hospital, but it was always short and sweet. I knew he wasn't comfortable. He had to hold the fort at home with Katy and Sam.

I remember lots of laughs, tears, and pain. In the end-losing my hair, 1 ovary, lots of strength, and enduring lots of pain...it was a small price to pay for my life.

Dad and Mom encouraged me to have strength and faith, this is what got me through that time, and today, I am reminded by that.

New slideshow of Dad and Grandpa Sheahen

I added another slide show of some pics. I am doing my best to find more pics.
GEEZ, I wish I would have taken more.
Lesson learned...

Just having an I miss Dad night.

Ken Sternweis, thank you for the email.

Mike Varney.-Thank you for the Christmas card.
These kinds of things mean a lot.

Blog followers???

One more thing...
I did ad a blog follower list.

I wanted to see who still reads this site-of course you are not obligated to be a blog follower, but it's kinda nice though to see that people still read this!

Just click on follow this blog on the side.

Thanks!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!
Oh my, can you believe it's 2009??

What a year it has been. I am looking forward to this year.
Why???
Birthday's to celebrate-Steve and I will be 29, or kids will turn 5 and 2.
My 10 year class reunion is coming in November-which I am planning.
A family vacation is in order-yet to be determined.
Just a whole new year full of adventures.

Of course, more time will pass without Dad. I'll still miss him everyday, and some days more than others.
I often wonder what time will be like without him. Obviously, I am very thankful for the time we had when he was here, but I still wonder what the future will be like.

I still will look for him at my kids birthday parties-eating tons of my mother in law's bbq's-and drinking diet dews.

I will listen for his laughter as he watches my boys play sports.

I will think of him everytime I see my brother-driving around his car.

These things will probably never change. That's ok. I will keep these memories fond and near to my heart.

Even though, I might not update this thing as often as I would like, know that I still feel the same.

I miss my Dad terribly, more than I even anticipated, as crazy as that sounds.

But, this is a new year...a new start.

Time to continue to live life and enjoy life.

Of course, the new years res. are in order.

Take better care of myself
Workout more-and stop wasting that gym membership-I signed that lovely 2 year contact too.
Be a better catholic
Be the best, wife, and mom that I can be.

Best of luck to all you with your new year's resolutions-although, I think they are overrated, and not that necessary because we all do whatever we want anyway.

Hey, the look good on paper though.

Well, off to enjoy the rest of my long weekend!

Just a quick note-
Dad,
I miss you and love you!
Hope all is well. Please continue to be with me and watch over my family. Happy New Year to you!